What made you stop being an addict?

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

This was February 2019.

Have you ever followed through being bi-curious?

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

What makes a woman attractive?

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

I did it in my administrator's office.

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

What is the experience of wearing a school uniform every day? Do people typically get used to it or dislike it?

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

Why do very skinny girls get more male attention if it is true that men like curves?

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

If an abortion doesn’t affect you, why do people make it a big deal?

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

What happens to single guys when they get older?

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

Why is pornography still alive and not illegal? Why doesn’t the government do about tricking women into them?

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

Why don’t Jews regard Jesus as an important teacher or rabbi, if not the Messiah? Putting aside messianic claims, wouldn’t Jesus be one of the most significant Jewish teachers in human history?

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

What are some of your shocking stories?

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

How long can someone with narcissistic tendencies maintain a facade of fake love before their true self is revealed? Is there a specific trigger or amount of time that causes them to reveal their true nature?

Now how do you quit your addiction?

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

Why does my best friend call me ugly and act like she’s joking, but today she looked at me and said “I wouldn’t lie to you”? What should I say back to her?

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

Just keep trying

And I can also talk to them now.

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

Read that again ☝️

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.